Well, Blu resigned from his job as youth pastor this past Sunday. I guess that it was Step One in our move to Zambia. My stomach was in knots all week long as the day approached. Of course, part of it was the fact that we have been here 3 1/2 years and LOVE our church family and will miss them greatly. This is home to us. But there was something else, and I brought it up to Blu Saturday night as we lay in bed. I said, "There's no turning back after tomorrow...this is it." It hit me that we could talk about moving to Zambia all we want, but the process was going to start the next day, and it felt like there was no turning back. No changing our minds--the uprooting would begin the next day. Blu asked how I was feeling and I told him I was sad. Not for us, but for our kids....what they'll be missing. He assured me as always that our kids will have more opportunities than children that live in America and have a "normal" life. I sighed, thinking that he didn't really get my point, and went to sleep.
The next morning was a normal day of worship. You know how between songs when the music minister starts talking and you sometimes tune out? Well, the man leading music suddenly quoted Matthew 6:33. Since I have been in high school, I have quoted that as my favorite verse. Not sure why, just always one that I have liked. When Jimmy read "Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you." It's like I heard God say in my heart, "You are seeking my kingdom, and I will add "these things" to your life more than you can ever imagine." Now, I don't know what "these things" are, but I know that they far exceed Little League baseball, dance class, and even time with extended family. Jimmy then sang an old song, "I'd Rather Have Jesus." It was surreal to sit there and hear a scripture I had heard for years and hear a song I knew by heart but to hear them speak to ME about our move. Peace just completely fell onto me at that moment.
Blu then came home and we both shared together how that verse and song spoke to us both. God is so good. Little League baseball? Pshh...I'd rather have Jesus.
4 comments:
Amen, girl! God will continue to bless you for your faithfulness to Him. I don't have kids, so I cannot relate on that front, but each time I return home from China, I feel the need to simplify life and I really think that if we had kiddos and moved or lived in China, they would have "more" than kids here. I guess I have just found that kids in China (and I assume that it is the same for kids in Africa) do not expect things to be handed to them. They appreciate everything and love unconditionally. That is what I think your kids will experience and it will make them into more incredible people than they already are! I hope that for my children someday! Sorry I wrote a book here, but just know that we are praying for you and know God has incredible things in store for your family. My heart wishes that we could pick up and go, but we are not sure if this is the right time. Praying hard! See you tomorrow!! Blessings...
I wish I was as strong as you...
I completely understand...It was always a struggle for my family growing up...knowing what was the right thing to do for our family. I'll tell you what I told my parents...I am so thankful to have the experience I did as an MK. Sure there might be hard times but God will definitely bless your kids in their experiences.
I love your heart for Jesus...when do you leave?
CeCe
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